After reading the first chapter of our book of the year, I think I have discovered that lately my heart has not exactly been in the right place to lead worship. I relate to the narrator a lot in that I feel as if I've been going through the motions and techniques of worship while I have been missing a heart full of love for God. I also relate in that I feel that my most of my quality time that I have with God is when I'm leading worship and I should really be looking to spend time to develop my relationship with him further. Recently, I've been trying to turn my attitude around and remind myself of how incredible it is that the creator of the world loves me. This morning in my physics class, Ms. Tucker reiterated this and I was remind of the love God has for me. I think I am on my way back on the right track where I am worshiping God not soley because I want to lead people to him, but I am worshiping him because he is deserving of worship. I worship him because I want him to know how much I love him back.
My favorite part of this chapter then, was when the narrator mentioned how the majority of his quality time with God was only during worship because I relate to that. I am working on that, though. I want to develop my relationship with him further, even outside of worship leading.
I completely agree with what you were saying. It's so hard sometimes to stay in a completely intimate relationship with God, especially in our crazy life as seniors. I would recommend you to carve out a small chunk of time either in the morning or at night, and reflect on who God is in your life.
ReplyDeleteBeing intimate with God is definitely something that we have to grow into, it does take a lot of work to keep pursuing faith. Quality time is important, it is how we can connect with God, thus expanding our relationship with him.
ReplyDeleteI like what you pointed out about him having his most intimate times with God while he was worshipping.
ReplyDeleteI loved how authentic and honest you are about your heart of worship. It's so easy to get lost in the music and forget who it's for. I hope that it's easier this year for all of us to connect with Him during Chapel.
ReplyDeleteChrista, I totally agree with you! It is so important to focus on our relationship with God and growing in our faith. That will make our worship so much more genuine and heartfelt.
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